How is your Oxygen intake?

Have you ever thought of how is your oxygen intake? I usually think on how much water I drink. I count how many calories I am consuming. I think and reflect on how much I am exercising and how what I eat affects my body, but I cannot recall a moment in which I have counsciously ask myself of how much oxygen am I inhaling. How am I breathing? Am Iusing my lungs to their fullest potential?

It never occur to me that this is an important topic to think deeper about. I know that I need oxygen to live, but I am definitely a person that has taken it for granted. The book I started reading a couple of days ago adresses this question. As a matter of fact it is dedicated to this question. Pam Grout, on Jumpstart Your Metabolism: how to lose weight by changing the way you breath, adresses the issue that we do not talk enough about the basics of losing weight and living a fullfiling life, which to my surprise is all related to our oxygen intake.

We definitely adress the topic in general, but we are looking for solutions on the consequences and not on the causes of our overweight or lack of energy. We know that oxygen is good and yoga has done a great job with this. Also all the meditation gurus talk about breathing and how it is a great way to center yourself. Plus as simple as we cannot spend that much time withouth breathing (3 minutes to be precise).  “Breathing is the most underrated activity on the planet” and yet is the one that provides us the most energy, it is our “body´s chief cleansing tool”, it literaly transforms our cells from being fat storerers to fat burners, and these are just some of the examples she explains in her book.

Brething affects us in physical, psycological to emotional aspects of our lives. This is the key activity which determines our quality of life. I must confess, I have breathing problems and this book just made it obvious.

Yesterday, I counsciouly did some tests and exercises the book provides and ,Let me tell you, what a mind-blowing discovery it was. I do not breath deeply. I half breath and eventhough I luckyly like to live fully, I have noticed a lack of energy in my body and being in general. Also I´ve been fighting against 30 extra pounds that I have been carrying for a couple of years now. It had never occur to me that I am not providing my body with the right fuel, which is oxygen. Uncousncioulsly withholding my breath, creates stress in my body making it tense, stiff and produce cortisol.

After I did some of the exercises in the book, I felt better, which is as simple as if you take just one deep breath ( inflate your belly with the inhale and squeeze all the air out on the exhale) you will automatically feel better, but I focused on this for the whole day. (At least the most that I could and when I remembered.) My day was slow and emotionally heavy. There was a lot of selftalk in my head and I was seeking to connect to myself and breath. Just breath. I finish normal and well it was just one of those mellow days.

but TODAY. Today I feel a huge difference in my being. Allowing all that oxygen enter my body was miraculous. I think my body was grateful for the loving oxygen I was allowing to enter it. I´ve been actively doing all my chores ( that I had procrastinated for a couple of days too) and I feel happy  and excited to do what I have to do.

It is an amazing feeling and I am sure it was all because I focused a little bit more on this activity that I anyways have to do: breathing.

I have not finished reading this book and I don´t know if I am going to lose weight, but just feeling how I feel in this moment by allowing all the air to fill my body, makes it worth reading. I will give this a try and breath through it.

Have a deep breath.


Jumpstart your Metabolism: How to lose weight by changing the way you breath by  Pam Grout.

“I am human and that is OK”

I don´t know what this post is going to be about. I just know I need to write this down and make it public. Put is out there and listen to this voice in my head that is talking too much. This voice in my head that is driving me crazy. The voice that tells me what is right and what is wrong.

I don´t even knon if i know the difference. There are moments in which I just want to be me, free without caring a bout the rules, but that is completly another topic, about which I might or might not write.

Not that I don´t get to be myself. I think I do. I think I get to do many priviledged stuff. I have gotten many blessings in my life, which are wonderful, but the funny thing is (and many may feel this way) those things don´t make us happy. Of course I can go with the cliché about “It is all about the experience not about the material things” which is true, but I want to go deeper. Change the subject a little bit…

More than what we receive from the outside, there is always that little voice in the inside that determines whether you are having a good time or not. No matter how good the whether is, there is inner sensations that will tell you whether you are in pain or not. No matter how many good quality friends or partners you may have, there is allways a little voice inside saying whether you are good enough or not.

Now, why should we care about this little voice? Well that little voice is deciding for you. That little voice is telling you how to approach your daily life. That little voice can run or ruin your life. So the question should be: how do we control or get the best of this little voice?

Truth be told I am still figuring it out and I have noticed though, that I have power over it more often than no.  Something tells me that if we directed it with the heart and start refracing our stories we can get better experiences. Now I know this is possible for a fact, because I´ve experienced the most amazing moments ever, just by reframing the story. Moments I never thought I was going to live.

I am now in  city called Tampa and it is located in Florida. I living a dream an experience I decided I wanted to live a couple of months ago ( literally two).  So for the most part I feel confident and powerful about what I do and how I do it, because I know my inner power can do anything and it´s not becuase I believe I am better than anyone, but just because I know I am working this out with everyone else too. Here is the secret; we are all connected! The moment I allowed myself to receive helo everything went better.

We are all connected to this crazy thing that we call love and love really makes it all possible.

Now you must be thinking, “you crazy bitch, easy to say, because you have it all!” ( or an equivalent to that). Point is, no I don´t have it all, or maybe I do… let´s define what having all means…  Anyways… my point is that as good as it can get, I don´t allways feel well. I started this post feeling sad and in pain, now at the end of this I am feeling better, but I am in pain… more than I would like to admit.

I have a lot of inner and bodily pains. I have selfdoubts most of the time and a lot of frustrations, specially for things that I love the most. My main struggle that I am trying to express through this post is how vulnerable I really am. I want to be strong and feel strong. I want to be able to create and develop environments for others to grow, but I feel stuck with my own demons, so I doubt my legitimacy of wanting to helo if I am not perfectly fine. I specially feel I have issues with my health. It seems to me that since a couple of years ago, I have not been able to put myself together and I have taken all the wrong paths. Now I think I am approaching the best route, with the help of this big connection I am talking you about. Nevertheless the situation of doubting myself self seems to never stop nor dissapear.

I guess in the end I will feel whole as soon as I realize and accept that the voice of magic, love and miracles making all amazing things possible; and the voice of selfdoubt, selfhate, pain and disgrace, can actually live together inside me. For this body was created to hold both voices.

I am on the journey of accepting the real imperfect me. I have demons and I have angels. I have shadow and I have light. I have weaknesses and I have strenghts. I am human and that is ok.