It never get´s easier

The other day I was doing my Ballet class and sweat was dropping down my face. My feet were hurting, my legs were shaking and my brain was commanding my body to keep going and finish the exercise. After that one I continued with the next one and the next one. While doing it, I kept telling to myself, how is it possible that after 6 months of class this is even harder and harder. Each class I have to concentrate more, hold longer, kick higher and go on point for more exercises. This just never gets easier!

 

Ballet, as everything else, has layers and layers of knowledge so as you keep working and working and learning new steps and details, the class instead of getting easier it gets more complex. You start building upon what you learned last class, so you end up thinking about what you learned last class and what you are learning this one. You have to connect the correction about the foot with the one about the head. You have to pull yourself up and go down on a plié. Kick your leg high and ground your support leg as if it is the roots of a tree.

 

These layers of knowledge are visible until you understand the layer beforehand. You start translating what you see into a feeling and an understanding that your own body can reproduce. You hold the opposites I was talking about, but after you tried the step a million times and something doesn´t work. So you add knowledge from a deeper layer and it makes it more understandable. After that you add a connected step that builds upon your previous knowledge… and so it keeps going and going.

 

Truth is, nothing in life gets easier, it just changes. Problems, obstacles and all that comes in our ways become always proportional to what we can confront in the present moment. So the amount of energy we put to what we do is proportional to what we can do, and it feels hard when we are truly changing and growing. Learning is breaking our old patterns and acquiring new. Learning is an uncomfortable process that takes energy and practice, which is probably what, makes it so much fun.

 

What is comfortable and too easy loses its grace and entertainment too fast. Complexity and difficulty is more interesting and hooks you into thinking and discovering. Probable a rea son why dancers love dance so much.